Coming back to life.

[aruru]

I'm back.


I can explain in detail what happened if anyone wishes to know, but the gist of it was: Things start innocently enough with old computer dying, got a new laptop (thanks to shinkuu's help), got DSL, switched modem that came with the DSL service to a wireless one, NEW computer has faulty motherboard and is sent away to get fixed (took maybe three weeks), then I manage to break TWO wireless modem/routers in the span of two months (by then it was the end of May or so when things with the comp/internet finally settled down).

However, in addition to the technical difficulties, well... remember those old high school friends I mentioned back in December? Well, at about the same time the computer stuff went down, my offline life decided to give me a sound kick in the rear by making me realize that, despite having neglected them for such a long time, they (especially one in particular) still wanted me in their lives; and I, after several years of living rather like a hermit, realized that I wanted... no, craved that company.

So, I started seeing them - as well as a longtime neighbor/very close friend who I also had neglected, who's currently going through some personal problems - regularly. Very, very regularly. At least once a week (usually my neighbor friend, since she's the closest), now that things have settled down a bit. My online time (which I'd reduced considerably) was also mostly eaten up by them for a good long while, since we use Facebook to keep in touch/plan stuff.

Once I started to have some more spare time online, however, I did, in the past few months, slowly manage to catch up with the entire backlog of entries for - at the very least - the LJs of my closest friends, and - in the case of those of you I don't know quite as well - went back a few months in those journals, so I'm MOSTLY up to speed in what y'all did during my absence. It was also a reason for my further delay in posting, as I wanted to be caught up with you guys before I said anything here.

...that and the fact that, when I started to realize how long it was taking me to catch up and just HOW long I'd been gone, I... well, I got anxious. And when I get anxious, I procrastinate (further). I started to think you guys would be angry at me for abandoning y'all so suddenly, and I couldn't handle the thought, so I took even longer to finish than it should've taken.

...which leads us to this point. Now that - with a little prodding from redconverse because frankly, I'm still really, really anxious - I'm here posting again, I wanted to say that:


I apologize. In my attempts to reconnect with my old local friends - which I had terribly neglected for many years - I wound up neglecting you guys just as much, and that's not fair at all, as your friendships are just as very real and important to me as theirs are. I only hope I can find a "happy medium" between online and offline life so as to not do that to any of you (and by that I also mean my local crew) ever again.

All I can hope for is your understanding, if nothing else. I was a jerk, and I'm sorry.

Comments

[ruaki.livejournal.com]

Hahahaha, well at least you didn't just flat out become a hermit or anything, unlike some people I know. =_= The cool thing about online peeps is that we're generally here even if you have to take a leave of absence--just next time, be sure to drop a line or two so we don't think you died or anything, especially those of us that aren't horrendously close to you. D:

But beyond that, everything about your absence minus the computer hell seems really positive, and that's just awesome :D

[aruru.livejournal.com]

Eheheheh... well, part of the reason I felt like such a jerk about it was because the previous time I was stuck offline due to computer difficulties, I DID make an effort to stay in touch. ^^;;

Then again, the reason I didn't get on LJ much was because this time around, I was logging in from a friend's computer at her family's apartment (and not from an internet cafe like the other time), and I really didn't want to abuse the privilege by spending a lot of time on it. Plus, I wanted to spend some actual time with her while I was there, yanno? ^^;

But yeah, I should've really left a friends-locked post or something explaining the technical difficulties. Ack. ^^;;


Anyway... yes, it's been pretty awesome to get back with my local friends. I still need to try to locate two more of them (one's been living in GA for several years now, though, so I'll have to contact him through the phone or email; the other, I'm not sure if he's still living here or if he moved, and all I got the last time I called him was his voicemail), but it's been great to see the ones that're still around. :D

P.S:

[aruru.livejournal.com]

Also, that icon you just used is AMAZINGLY wrong. I love it. XD

Re: P.S:

[ruaki.livejournal.com]

Is it the one with the uh... cannon?

Yeah... that's Gintama. XD;